Gus... I was just thinking about the time you rode in the ambulance with me when I was taken to the hospital, for stomach pain. I remember you almost got kicked out of the hospital, because you were yelling at the nurse to hurry up, so I could be seen by a doctor. I had really bad pain, and you were right there by my side, telling me everything was going to be alright. I wish I could have been right by your side when you od on drugs, because maybe I could have got you help, and saved your life. I miss you so much honey, life is just not the same without you here. You will always be in my heart forever!

So I try to come here...

but it's hard...

and emotional..

but umm...
just letting you know that I am still thinking about you .. and letting you know I love you.

<3

so i'm up late wishing for my birthday that you were still here and wishing that I didn't have to be writing this...and  I hope you're giving mom a sign that you're still with her.

Miss yah<3

Love,

your little sis<3

Gus... Today I'm going to put a memorial for you in the newspaper... I will always keep your memory alive, because thats all I have left are the memories... I miss you so much

Gus... I have been trying to see your daughter, Ava, but I haven't seen her since Christmas time. I was going over to Melissa's parents home, to see her, but now I am getting tired of begging to see my own grand-daughter. It feels like they have total control on when I can see her, and I don't feel like its fair to me, or your memory. I have been checking out articles on Grandparents rights, and I feel that I should have some rights to be able to see Ava on a regular basis. Just because you were forced out of her life, doesn't mean I want to be forced out. I miss you, and wish you were here to see how beautiful your daughter is. She looks just like you!!!

Gus.... I was able to get a rescent picture of you, because I needed to know how much you changed, and you are still the most handsome son in the world!!!! I really miss you so much, and wish I could just see you one more time, so I can tell you how much I love you.

I remember when you started liking girls and you thought you liked tara and you brought her to the mall and spent your first whole pay check on her. you bought her those big ugly ugly silver shoes.  that was to funny. you really were a good kid and i really  wish i would have been a better role model for you. I love you and i miss those big beautiful dark eyes of yours

Your time has already come and I don't know why
The last thing that I had heard
you were doin' just fine
It seems like just yesterday
I was laughing with you
Playing games at Grandma's house
well you taught me well, didn't you?
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you

You left before I had a chance to say goodbye
But that's the way life usually is
it just passes you by
But you can't hold on to regrets and you can't look back
So I'll just be thankful for the times that I had with you
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you
If they don't have radios in heaven
here's what I'll do
I can bring my guitar when my time is up and I'll play it for you

Tell me can you hear me now
if not, then I can try to sing real loud
What's it like up on the other side of the clouds?
I hope I'm just like you
I hope I turn out to be as good as you

(a song for you gus)

i miss yah alot. :)

Gus... Remember the time we went to Onondaga Lake Park for a cookout, and we were playing Rummy at the picnic table. You won every game we played, because I was wearing mirrored sun glasses, and you could see my cards in my hand. I finally caught on how you were winning, and we both had a good laugh over it.... that was funny... I miss you honey...

i think of all the long talks we had about you staying in school and you continueing your writing. i remember you showing me some lyrics you wrote about the street life. keep a watch over your mom and send her signs that your still with her. also tell your gramps i send my love. love you always,

                                            Dale

Gus... Remember the time we went camping at Hyde Lake with Tammy, we had a really fun time. We went swimming,  fishing, and had a scavenger hunt. I think the best time, was telling ghost stories, and roasting marshmellows at night. We all had a great time  :)   I miss you so much :(

I remember the last time I saw you, was when I dropped you off at the bus station. You gave me a big hug goodbye, and I will cherish that hug forever. If I knew I would never see you again, I would never had let you go... I miss you so much Gus...and I will always love you forever

We went roof hopping, haha and you got caught.

that was fun. lol